Am i stupid?
Am i idoitic?
Am i a hypocrite?
Am i reckless?
Am i.... am i..
THERE'RE SO MANY "AM I" in my head RIGHT NOW!
what's the problem?!
Looks like i'm the one that push all to u!
You said that to me! YES YOU DID!
You broke my most important thing to live!
there's nothing u can do to make it looks as perfect as it is.
even if u did, u'll break it again.
ok?!
looks like only death can settle all these,
well...even though i am afraid to,
but the pain inside can overwhelm all the fear of death.
maybe ah, one day i will.
if i'm forced to the limits..
i love you too much,
like just now, i told him that i feel like dying..
he said he thinks u'll come and look for me..
u know what i said to him?
" it's impossible, i know him too well. He won't come and look for me. "
and indeed, u didn't.
sometimes i think, what if i really mean what i say..
will u believe it?
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